Reality
Lately I have been struggling with a couple of different pursuits in my brain. I was able to articulate it last night with a friend and thought I would capture it here now. My tension seems to be the idea of manifesting reality, or co-creating reality in Wayne Dyer's phrasing, and simple meditation. The thing is I see these two avenues of my brain as being not so much different roads as more cul-de-sacs on the same street. My problem it seems comes from the desire to manifest for my family an existence that is comfortable, and of course this means lots of things but mostly it means this idea of bringing forth, of co-creating. Now over on the other cul-de-sac is the hope of enlightenment and manifesting compassion and wisdom. Right away I see that both things involve manifesting. The idea that I Am that I can bring into being what I tell myself I want. But what I have found is that I want is the thing that is confusing the picture. I have desire and I want to be aware and accept abundance, and I want to be non-attached, not have aversion. My friend, who is wise and knows me and that I have kids and that I want the best for them brought to my attention that my kids have their own karma and regardless of what I bring into being they will still have their karma to deal with. I know that already just by being born in North America they have material wealth beyond most of the world. Where my concerns are music lessons, dance lessons blah, blah, blah , a large percentage of the world is looking for their next meal.
So what is my problem? The problem is still one of ego and attachment. The thing is I can manifest reality, the issue is my conditioning to think that material well being is the road to happiness.